Anna Grace & Libbie's Release

This is the week!  The week the Elizabeth Custer book is officially released.  I want it to do well, but it’s like sending your child out into the world to possibly be ridiculed, or worse yet, told they’re ugly and of no value.  The situation reminds me of a time in my life when I personally believed I was ugly and had no value.  Years from now I might be able to speak about the circumstances a bit more in depth, but for now I’ll simply note that at that time I struggled with the notion of taking my own life.  I probably would have if not for the kindness and influence of a few strong women in my sphere of influence, one of which oddly enough was my ex mother-in-law.  She paid attention to me, was interested in the things I was interested in, she helped me do my laundry, gave me a beautiful dress, and was generally decent.  She seemed to see something in me I didn’t at the time and it gave me hope.  Without being too overly dramatic, I believe God sent an angel to help get me through to the next station in life.  I loved and admired her and although I am no longer a part of her family, the good she did influences me today.  It would be nice to see her again and tell her face to face what an impact she had.  For that reason alone I do not regret my first marriage.  I’ll never forget how she helped stand me on my feet again.  Hope the experience of knowing me wasn’t a totally loss for her.  I guess that’s what I hope for readers of the Custer book – that it’s not a totally loss for them.  If it is I don’t think I want to know.  My ex mother-in-law isn’t around to help make it all better.  Which would be a little weird now – not to mention hard to explain.  Anyway,  happy reading.