October 23rd, 2009

The meeting yesterday with the attorney resulted in more bad news. It’s hard to hear that there is no help to be had and that my brother will die in prison. The sticking point is that he pled guilty – a course I told him to take because our attorney, JR Hobbs out of Kansas City informed me that there was a 97% conviction rate in cases like Rick’s. Of course, the lawyer tells us that after he’s collected more than $100,000. There was no money left to go to another lawyer then and Hobb’s statement and actions proved he wasn’t willing to give it his all to help my brother. Given all of that I opted for the plea. It’s all my fault. Retaining an attorney who didn’t care, convincing my brother to take a plea – that’s on me. It’s been five years and I’m still trying to undo my actions. I hope death comes quickly for him. I’d pray about it more, but it seems obvious God is somewhere else.